So I did it again.

Spent three days avoiding Emilie only to have it blow up in my face.

Everyone thinks I am crazy for talking to her but I have long pushed that noise aside. I still think there is hope but perhaps I am thinking of the situation all wrong. Well, it's at least not on the same level as Em. She has some plan in her head for us and the details/timeline of said plan are locked away in her head. Well, at least this is my understanding. So, this puts me in a sort of wierd limbo. Borderline humiliated by my own emotions and innability to fully let go. Anyway, just thought I'd share. It may boil down to OK, let's see if Jon does something spectacular with his life. Well, that is already starting to happen. I would imagine everyone agrees change happens slowly.

Anyway, I want people to chime in.... anonymously, of course.